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I am a Ferocious lover, when I love, I do so without looking back or sideways. If I gat you, it's me and you for life, no matter the odds. So on this day, many years back, I fell in love. I don't know if it was her look or cute smile towards me but I believed I loved her too.

She was a young tribe of Ewe angel and could have done anything to get her to look my way, only, she probably didn't know that I existed. Yes, she could see him.....but her eyes was blinded by the love of another. So she loved someone else, while I loved her. Everyday, I would walk past her with my tiny legs, pretending to be handsome, just so I could notice her but she never saw me, when the other boys walked past,

I would see her face light up with a smile as she stands up to give another guy a hug.....my chest burned. E choke.

Oneday, I saw her smiling with another guy, I knew that moment, she will liked this new guy more than she liked the one I liked.....and I was broken and happy. Broken because I felt hurt that she was hurting her, happy because I could now have her to myself.

But how could I make this girl see that, the new guy didn't really love her? How could I tell her that we were a match made in heaven and inseparable? She talked to me very rarely, only when she wasn't in school but I helped her do assignments and would be worried sick when she was didn't show up in school, while the other guy would be gallivanting and frolicking with other girls.

It was a painful experience that broke my heart many days in a row but what could I do? The heart want what! I could never stop loving her. I prayed that one day she would realize that I'm the one for her and run to me. Sure, that day came.... but it was hurt by him ( New guy ), she would tell me how hurt she was and I'll console her, sad and happy.

But soon as she got emotionally stable, she was running back to him but I never despaired. I was like the dumping bag for all her emotional tantrums. I was hurt, deeply hurt when I think of her, I wondered when she would eventually see my love as true but I didn't mind the pain I felt daily because when I said I loved her, I wasn't mincing words.

Just like I was hurting daily, that is how God is hurting daily when you throw his love out and see fulfilment elsewhere. That is how He is hurting when you keep indulging in acts of fornication, musturbation, stealing, lying, defrauding people and every other selfish act that isn't in line with God's word. God hurts, because the one He truly loves, gave his heart and life for is frolicking with the devil.

He hurt because even though you know he loves you, you despise his love and keep hurting him. You despise his plans and purpose for your life and go on to do that which pleases you....When your plans fail, you come crying to him, seed, beaten and battered yet, He takes you in, consoles you with his unfailing love and showers you with "Small goodness"

As soon as you receive the ''Small goodness" you bounce back to the world and continue doing that which pleases you but the good thing is that, He never despairs when He said He loves you, He wasn't mincing words. He loves you....but you are in love with another. Abba is calling you today! can't you see that cannot really find peace and happiness in those places you're looking?

He is the only source....and He gives it to those who give their hearts to him without looking back. Surrender your heart and will to Him today.....and watch Him do wonders in your life. I might be a Mindset Couch, but I am first, a preacher of the Abba's message. If you want to live truly surrounded to Him, Swipe up and let's pray together.

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